4.30

I believe,

Something that doesn't kill you makes you stronger.

4.29

跟自己最近的时候

莫过于跟自己独处的时候

把心静下来

告诉自己要重新出发

刚从VIVIAN的生日晚餐回来

暂时把不开心的事放在一边

回来关在房间

又开始在反省

以前读书的时候

看到同学很努力很努力

可是成绩不好

会为他们觉得可惜

可是在自己身上很少发生

因为那时的我

付出多少回报就是多少

虽然说大学也不是第一次面对这种问题

可是这次有一定的严重性

我真的努力了

拿到那样的成绩

越想越伤心

在朋友面前哭

把难过哭出来 把糟透了哭出来

我只是觉得为什么这么不公平

是啊

我很差

可是我努力去做了啊

我尽了全力

那一瞬间觉得努力全化为乌有

我这两年拼书拼来干嘛

最后得到的又是什么

现在唯一能补偿的就是把试考好

别无他法

没有时间让你沮丧了温仪

把信心找回来！

自己选择的路

跪着也要走完

爱我的人们，

我会越挫越勇

4.28

我弟真的长大了。

他有烦恼，却只跟我含糊的带过，让我不可以跟爸妈说，不想让他们担心。

他一直以来都有苦自己吞

不跟我们抱怨

我家弟弟怎么性格就跟我那么相反啊？

加油哦弟弟，

姐姐我在这里也会好好努力地！

4.24

Our lecturer literally stressed me out. Oh crap, 3 more weeks to tort exam and yet I am in the process of doing notes!!! Michelle Hoon Yee, 3 weeks, is 3 weeks!!!!! The feeling of unprepared is way scary, the feeling of praying for a pass is way depressing.

No way, I AM NOT GOING TO DO THIS TO MYSELF AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

4.20

莫名奇妙闯进生活里的过客

说了是过客
就是总有一天会走的嘛
只是时间长短的问题
很好奇
想问问上帝
为什么让这个过客留在这里勒
有什么意义呢？
闺密说这是缘份
缘份总是来得莫名奇妙
也对
我想下次这个过客走的时候
我一定会成为更好的自己

4.17

wORTH READING :)

tHE MALAYSIAN INSIDER

APRIL 17, 2013

APRIL 17 – Ever since the Bersih campaign last year, the topic of politics were sure to be mentioned in almost any conversation with friends. Most of us are going to vote for the upcoming election for the very first time, and a lot of us have mixed ideas and opinions, let alone who we are voting.

I am a medical student in a foreign country right now, and honestly, before this, I usually ignored politics, with the mindset going “it’s all peaceful now, what so bad about it”, the only news I read was sports and possibly world news and that was pretty much about it. I hardly gave any concern about the nation’s problems and future, because I took it for granted that it will always be this way and I just couldn’t be bothered. Why? Because I felt it does not affect me. And boy I was wrong.

After coming to a foreign land, and being far away from Malaysia, for a little time, thoughts changed about ways things were done back home. Especially the system, because truth to be told in my opinion, the system has “failed”, and the people left to believe that the rest of the world is pretty much like in Malaysia, that we are in par with a lot of places.

And yes criticism, can be said that I’m not being grateful, we are far more prosperous or doing much better than so many other countries, but I think it’s a huge mistake to take that sort of mindset thinking that we are good now, and nothing can go wrong. In my opinion, actually we should be far better than we are now, so far forward in the world, and where we are now is almost a “failure”. Because regardless however good and safe we think we are, the world is ever changing and moving forward, and if we let go of the sight, we possibly would never reach where we should be potentially.

We have natural resources and definitely fantastic human resources, I don’t think many people realise that in many foreign universities that Malaysian students has invaded, we almost always have a number of students at the very top, and trust me, we do get respect saying we are Malaysian students. And so what this got to do with the upcoming elections?

To me, when resources are managed well, by putting the right brains behind to manage every single source we have, we could creep closer to the future a little bit closer to us. But then while I was back in Malaysia, I suppose I never had such feelings or thought, perhaps because of the media and coverage given, that is quite lopsided, saying that “everything is fine”, makes us indirectly take everything for granted.

I think the first major change we can do, regardless of pro-government or opposition is to free up the media. And yes of course with certain limitations. What for? Because in this century, if we can’t question the accountability of our leaders, what is democracy in the end?

They were voted for, selected to be accountable for our wealth, our shared wealth, to make this place, a better place for our future children, a country that where ahmad, ah chong and ramu can all live together, and prosper, and say that there is no place in the world they rather be, that they can live, as forward as any other place in the world. Rather than spoiling praises to blow smoke up leaders, we should listen to criticisms, only then they will feel the “hot seat” that they are in, that a lot depends on them and they should take the appointment seriously.

I think then, we hardly would hear any scandalous reports of corruption or power abuse, because they will be afraid. And by right they should be afraid. After all, we are the ones who are running the country and the existence of people power. If in case they ever try to be sub-par, they can be replaced immediately by someone who can do better. That the people are aware of who and how is the country is being run.

In a way, a strong opposition is not a bad thing. It keeps both sides in check. I guess I seen much more efforts by the government lately, rather than 10 years ago. I’m not really into the ideas of giving people a one hand-off cash, that’s pretty much unnecessary. Even its being mocked by foreign news, as being a measure of buying votes legally? Of course loads of youth enjoyed the meagre sum, in so many ways. But it’s temporary? If you calculated those amount that has been given, and used it in a different way to help people, to develop, I think it’s far more beneficial. Don’t give the fish to the man, but teach him how to fish?

And there is nothing wrong taking other countries as model. I’m not saying as a whole, but as in the terms of economic growth, progress and management, we could actually emulate or even better, innovate these ideas, and implementing them. Rather than coming out with projects like “signs of a gay person”, I think we can be far better.

A slight revamp on the education style, tightening the loose ends, and making sure that each Malaysian, regardless of race, has either education or skills to be able to support themselves or their family in times to come. Making sure that the incidents like the comical lawyer in the late beng hock case, doesn’t appear. Ever.

I guess for a voter for the first time, it’s a bit a lot to think about. Finally realising that we are the one’s choosing how this country going to be. That whatever bad or good things that are to come, we brought them on ourselves. Change is hard and difficult, but it is definitely needed.

And to me, it doesn’t matter whether it’s BN or PKR, because if either coalition is going to take us, the people, for granted, they need to be reminded that they would lose the mandate to run the country. Because we, the people, can always choose, the one’s that is envisioned for prosperity and the heart to serve. Since BN has ruled for 50 years, why don’t we see how PKR go for 5?

If PKR wins the upcoming election, and just going to be like BN with just a difference in name, we totally can get rid of them in the next election. Let both sides always know that where they are now, aren’t forever. In a weird way, for them being in a tug of war, is just going to beneficial to us, because they want to outdo each other, in serving us? So I don’t think it will be a bad situation when we have 2 strong parties going head to head.

Elections are coming.

4.16

The most torturous period of the year officially begins, when the sun sets at 830 pm.

We all can do this!

4.14

Your parents sent you to Wales to study law
You said you wanted
But now your determination can be seen from nowhere
You say you feel thankful
I don't see it
You think you wana help people who are in need
You think u can with your current level of knowledge?
You are not as great as you think you are
People are going to look down on your jut because of the grade on your certificate
They don't care what you did
You can never repay your parents
No one is a born lawyer
But trained to be one
Don't expect you can be one if you do not work hard today

LET'S NAIL IT!!!

4.12

拜托上帝
就这两个月
让我为自己好好努力这两个月

4.11

You're not the one. 

4.10

Underground, venue of the most impressive moment in this london trip.

Londoners move fast, especially in the underground, you can see various types of people rushing here and there, typical culture of big luxurious cities.

So, while we were rushing to coach station, someone slowered down our footsteps, obviously not just 3 of us, but others as well. He was standing at the corner, playing electric guitar, same as other performers usually do. The only different is this guy who was playing electric guitar here, was playing without his right palm (He tied something on his right hand to control guitar's strings). HE CAN EVEN PLAY ELECTRIC GUITAR WITHOUT HIS PALM YOU SEE!

That moment was stunning. He has the power to slow down their move and left him some coins (in a situation that people usually will not bother if there is anyone else singing or performing there). I guess every passer-by feels something, is determination. Is something more than you can say he was just simply trying to earn money, he was showing me right there that nothing is impossible, and what does matter is determination. Can you imagine that picture in your head? (my bad for not taking photo of him, ><)

People without palm uses his weakness as merit, so what on earth is impossible? Why on earth you can't do something since you are in a much more better situation than the guy?

Determination, it's all about determination.

4.6

Why my result sucks last year?

Not hardworking enough? Not determine enough? Didn't spend enough time on past year papers? Not familiar with those cases? Lack of passion?

T.T

4.4

你不努力，
永遠不會有人對你公平，
只有你努力了，
有了資源，有了話語權以後，
你才可能為自己爭取公平的機會。

4.2

Less BUSY,

 

more PRODUCTIVE!

New motto for our brand new month. I'm still alive. Yeah half of the easter break has gone, and yet revision is driving me crazy. We Can Do This!!!

P/S: Keep reminding myself: Study law is not just for yourself, not merely to accomplish your goal to be a lawyer. Instead, you need to use your knowledge to help others, those who in need. So never complain.