10.30

十月
来了又走了
有人在这个月里忙着追梦
有人忙着赚钱
有人忙着睡觉
你呢?
我回来英国
也一个月了
如果毕业就走的话
我剩下九个月呆在这个会下雪的国度
能为自己留下什么
我这么问自己
三年在英国的留学经历到底成就了怎样的一个我
我成长了吗？

这几天都好羡慕朋友一个个回家
不知怎么的在这个家
特别容易觉得孤单
可能去年一整年都跟杨品涵他们一起住
过得太幸福了吧
所以今年落寞了
结果这几天心情都很低落
不可以这样温仪
你现在踏着的这片土地
是多少人的梦想
你现在读的学校读的课系
是老爸老妈多辛苦供的
你对自己的期望呢
还有资格喊累吗
哪里来的勇气偷懒啊
奋斗的你给我回来
为了你的毕业典礼
为了多几个月的考试

你！！！
一定要给我努力！！！
When there is a will, there is a way!!!

10.28

Often feel the emptiness these days. I wonder why. Miss family. Consequences of sickness and staying in my room perhaps. I actually facebook inbox my bro tat I cooked cabbages with ikan bilis for lunch, and the taste was similar as mum so I was touched lol. I said I miss mum' dishes, but deep in my heart I miss her! They are going to KK without me sigh. Ok fair enough since I went Bangkok with them without my bro haha. Time to prepare for EU tutorial, jiayous HOON YEE! You can see them in 8 months!!!

10.25

臭鼻涕贱鼻塞烂咳 还不放过我 死鬼！！！！！


老豆今天又给我上了宝贵的一课， 他说：


人生除了要懂得吃苦，同时你要学会怎么吃亏。

10.23

Yayyyy
I am getting much more better
despite the fact that I almost fall asleep in my tutorial for the first time lol
Ya
so Michelle Hoon Yee
gonna start her engine
and time to work hard
P/S: we have 7 asians and 2 caucasians in the trust tutorial today, this is kinda weird my gosh, you dont actually feel like you are studying in the UK. But I like this muahaha. Weirdo.

10.22

生病后有感

Everything was ok until last night
I wore a hoodie and went to library
I think the hoodie is not thick enough
felt damn cold throughout the whole night
and my head was damn dizzy
that was weird
coz yesterday 2 of my friends told me that they were sick
and today is my turn to catch a fever

I actually cried this morning
lol useless
was sobbing on my own bed
felt so helpless
Each part of my body was freaking heavy
My forehead was damn hot
and this reminded me of my parents
whenever I have fever
whenever I feel sick
they are always there
And yet i am all alone here
even if i fainted in my room
nobody would have known
I remembered I catched a fever too
back in Kuching during summer
Once i woke up
there was a bowl of porridge on the dining table
my parents they needed to work
but the porridge will always be there before I woke up
and that they would call back once or twice to check if I'm ok

I know right
I am still a little girl
but don't you have the same feeling?
Especially when you are sick or down
wouldn't you think of your beloved family?

thank you Eena bong who kept me accompanied when I was seriously ill
thank you Yee Hui who asked me to rest well
thank you Nelson Kiu who asked whether I have eaten my lunch
thank you Fauzeeyah who actually paid me a visit although my room was seriously in a mess

10.15

曾经
有个朋友告诉我们说
她觉得友情 朋友
是生命的过客
在人生不同的阶段
会有不同的朋友
她看开了

一开始听她说这个道理
觉得不对
因为那时潜意识里的友谊是永固的
来了就不可能走
至少那时的我那么天真的认为

然而经历的事越多
对事情的看法也变了
是啊
朋友真的是过客
不管是好朋友 聊得来的朋友 还是最普通的朋友
他终究会
在这个地铁站上车
在那个地铁站下车
来来往往
断断续续

这也不是坏事
只是我还在学着去面对

一起加油！

10.9

星期三没有课的下午
打开手机的相片册
翻看我和家人去泰国的相片
觉得自己真的是一个很幸福的孩子
爸爸在我回古晋前就嚷嚷等我回家要一起去旅行
弟弟因为上课没去成
希望下次我们再一起去旅行的时候
会是我的毕业典礼
看着那些照片
我觉得自己真的应该感恩
家人给了我那么多那么多
而我能够回报的到底有多少
我记得我有一个目标
是在二十五岁之前
用自己赚得钱带家人去韩国
哈哈
毕业后就二十二了
而我的茫茫前途
还找不到终点站呢
不过
我会加油的
为我身边的每一个人
我一定会努力成为一个更好的自己

没有人要求你必须卓越，除了你自己。
没有人能一步到达卓越，只需每天进步一点点。:)

我一定要减肥！T.T

10.5

My legs are really painful now, I was out for the whole day, yea instead of starting to prepare for my tutorial, i went to shop. So i bought quite a few clothes, prepare for this coming winter, as some of u might know, my winter clothes basically has been burnt down. Hopefully those will be enough, since I wont have the time to do shopping this often once tutorial starts. And yes, i went to Cardiff Korean Society First Social, it was quite ok, but the kinda 'clubbing' or sitting in the pub part really doesn't suit me. I don't know, it's just that the environment which made me uncomfortable with. 'I don't know what am I doing' haha one of my friends said. I just couldn't understand this part of culture, even in Malaysia. After all, still a fruitful Saturday tho, live final year to da fullest! :)

10.4

那一年

我们望向星空 

有那么多

灿烂的梦

10.1

Juz realized that how i took the past 2 years' life for granted
Someone cooked for me cleaned for me
n yet i complained non-stop
okie fine
time to live like a 21 years old girl
I seriously gonna work hard from tomorrow onward
I want to be somebody
somebody that i want myself to be
We live for once
It is now or never
I will remember every bits of my life
and the harvest will come eventually
this is the promise to myself

cheers for the 21st!