3.30

Hey I am confused these days, who am I and what I have been doing these days. The questions have repeatedly popped out, did I make a right choice? Should I withdraw the offer? Too much uncertainty, too much insecurity.

Is the law firm really suits me? They didn’t offer family law, but frankly I really don’t think litigation is my cup of tea. So for corporate? Yes they do, 2014 best law firm yea?  

My main concern is the future colleagues though. Most of them (the other chambees) will be my classmates, I really hope that we can work in peace and hopefully an enjoyable environment. Competition? Drama? Shooh laa.

Okay, my working holiday visa plan gonna defer undoubtedly. 1 or 2 years? Unknown. We’ll see.

Michelle Hoon Yee, you must be grateful. For you are lucky enough to get called to the interview, and even got the offer to chamber there. And you know what,

‘WHEN YOU COME OUT OF THE STORM, YOU WON’T BE THE SAME PERSON WHO WALKED IN. THAT’S WHAT THIS STORM’S ALL ABOUT’

Thank you heavenly father, I know everything happens for a reason J

3.28

5.45早上，只睡了三个小时就醒了。昨天发生的事情还历历在目，伤口并没有这么容易愈合。续上个礼拜以为SCREWED惨惨 之后， 奇迹发生了。前几天受到电话，让我昨天去Second interview. 于是昨天是我正式签了卖身契的日子，如果成功通过八月的考试的话，就必须到那间law firm上班了。只是跟其中一位律师discuss Offer 的时候，闹到很不愉快。好话说在前，说他们公司相信我是很好的candidate，所以才会在20个人里面把我列入7位入选名单的其中一个。可是听了我的workiNg holiday plan 之后他就戏剧性的大发雷霆-.-理所当然我被伤得遍体鳞伤。我觉得他说实在真的是超传统的思想，不能理解为什么别人花4年读law结果还要花一年去外国而不是马上实习成为律师。come on 世界上有一个词叫experience 你他妈的在leading law firm 当partner 有多了不起，肤浅到极点。人生啊

3.18

Okay, update is a must to note down the official first legal career interview yesterday, which one would sum up using a word: SCREWED, literally. Below is the few face-palmed moments which I really think that I m a sucker -.-

1. So how was your attachment with Skrine? (the other law firm)
Wonderful! As in the programme is really structured, and I learned a lot from my mentor.... 

...

After a few other random questions, he asked: 'So let's say Skrine and Shearn both offer you a place to chamber, which one will you choose?'
Shearn! Because generally I prefer the environment here 
He interrupted 'But I thought you just said your experience at Skrine is wonderful?!'
I was like OMG, DAMMIT! so I replied ' Yes, but the environment is more friendly here, as in Skrine is quite stressful, and all attachment students are put in the library, so we don't really have the chance to talk to other LAs, except our mentor...'

FML. This is how I slapped myself using my own hands.

2. Have you heard about Bersih? What do you think of that?
Yes, I think Malaysia politics is dirty..(He interrupted again 'Actually bersih is not about politics you know', HELLO BERSIH IS BUILT ON THE UNFAIR POLITICAL CONSPIRACY WHAT- MAN I SHOULD REPLY THIS)
So I acted like a stupid, asked them 'it's the campaign lodged by ambiga right?' (FML- I am asking the interviewers is it organized by ambiga when i know it is and it literally showed my stupidity) '

FML2.

3. What do you think about Sedition Act? Do you think it should be abolished?
Yes I think it should, although my lecturer Mariette Peter does'nt really agree with that. (FML3- I dont know why the hell I mentioned about her but she just came across my mind -.-)
The interviewer : Look, We're now asking your opinion, not your lecturer's (THANK YOU FOR REMINDING ME SUCKER)
Me: I know, I am just stating that I dont agree with her and the reason....


Besides these 3 FML matters, ridiculous stuff just came out from my mouth on and off throughout the interview, I was nervous -.-. But it's overall a valuable experience, practice makes perfect and I am beyond lucky to have the chance to get called to the interview.

So note to myself
1. Try your best to polish your speaking skill.
2. Be confident.

So despite the awful experience, I went for the movie 'Cinderalla' with my coursemates right after the interview. It reminds me of my childhood a lot, as I used to watch it repeatedly. Now I look back to the same movie, with a different thought. Moral of the story is that be brave, be kind, and you will end up living happily after, that's no doubt for sure. But it might be not preferable to give small girls (like who i used to be) an impression that they should wait for the prince to live happily ever after you see. Girls nowadays can be queen, stand by their own to live happily ever after, with or without the prince :)

3.3

Chaos, everywhere, everything. 

Get back to the right track soon please, I'm emotionally unstable now.

Give me back my peaceful life.

Hey March, please treat me well.

P/S: Brother never fail to remind me of the chilling weather in the UK, while I complained about the getting-worse-heat in KL. Oh dear, someone please sent me back to Cardiff, I am so so tired.